Friday, April 15, 2011

Don't worry. Be happy.


OOOOO...oooo o o oooo ooooooooooo o oOO O oooo
....You know you started ooooing right along with me when you read that TITLE! :)

Oh, You didn't?

Maybe... it's just the PREGNANT FREAK IN ME!

38 weeks. I am 38 weeks! 
HOW DID THIS HAPPEN?


It really is starting to set in...
REALLY!
Liv will be here before we know it..
My baby girl. 
I am having a daughter. 
AHHHHHH!

I feel like I have so many things to do before she gets here. 
EXAMPLE:

Buy newborn diapers. 
(yeah..that is a BIGGY)
Pack hospital bag. 
Find "bring home" outfit.. 
Get bassinet ready.
(currently it's holding my camera & CLEAN laundry i need to put away)

I have been calling myself the 
"Pregnant freak" with this pregnancy due to my RAGING hormones... 
I can tell this is a girl.
I've never cried so much in my life.
I've never sobbed into a pillow this much. EVER.
I've never felt so tired before.
I've never NOT wanted to eat so much...
except spinach. 
YUM.
I've never wanted to just slush. 
all day.
I've never cried so much.
I've never cried so much.
I've never cried so much.
over. everything

Especially these past couple weeks.
AHHHH!

I can feel all stressed, hormonal, & tired...
but then I find a good book.
(no. i'm not a big reader. i like to call myself the "Easy reader")....
My sisters are the BOOK GIRLS! 
They can read BIG...LONG... GINORMOUS books...in NO TIME.
Me?
Eh...
I like...
devotionals. 
(daily) 
Bible
(nice size chapters)
& fun little books.

Like this baby....




I open it up.... 
& lets read what it is going to tell me to be happy about...

*Knowing how to make a good cup of coffee.
yes. i do have that down.
so? I am SMILING!

*Electric blankets
HOW did they know that would make me SMILE???
i looooooove. adore. NEED mine in the Iowa winters!


*Trimming logs for cabin building
yep. 
that's in there... 
***SKIPPING PAGES***

*Morning weather reports
Sometimes... this can go sour.

*Smell of a campfire. 
YEP. 
S'MORES!!! MMMM...

I can read all 14, 000.
But
nothing
compares
to my little
man...
Tristan.


*MY CUP RUNNETH OVER*
You see, there is a strength inside of Tristan that comes straight from his earthly father. 
Superman. 
My Superman.
I can have a HORRIBLE day. 
I can be sobbing in my rocking chair for feeling so large and that this baby girl just wants to be in there for the rest of her ADULT LIFE.
I can be sobbing in my rocking chair 
(see the pattern?) 
& be saying...OW. OOWWW. OUUCHH with every KICK she puts to my bladder....
I can be sobbing in my rocking chair JUST BECAUSE I am not comfortable in that chair anymore, but the couch is just as a miserable place to sit... 
*tears coming to my eyes right now*

I can go into a WHIRLWIND OF DRAMA-DRAMA!

I can groan when I roll from side to side because I can't breathe from her resting on some nerve.
I can SCREAM from sharp pain coming from my pelvis bone...
(i think she has officially DROPPED) 
But yet....

When Tristan comes over and sits on my lap....
(trying to push my belly out of the way)
...............................
There is something so wonderful...so refreshing... so STRENGTHENING about Tristan's touch and smile.

In Tristan I find such delight that I have never had before.

When watching a movie or just rocking & singing....
He will find my face.
&
start to rub his small chubby hand over my WHOLE face.
Every stroke brings a ZAP of strength to my soul.

He is like his daddy in so many ways.
But the one I have noticed this past week...more than all others...
He gives me strength.
He helps me be stronger. 

He is more like his HEAVENLY Father than I realized... 

Oh, How I love my Tristan. 
My little Tundra. 
My "full court press"
My T. 
My baby.
My little man.
My hugger. 
My Mamma's boy.




I love my Tristan. 




4 comments:

  1. 2 things:

    1, I think it's funny that the book had something about trimming logs for a cabin. I guess that makes some people really happy.

    2, Tristan is going to be the BEST big brother for Livia!

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  2. AWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE I CRIED!!! Tristan is such a sweetie. I know you love him... I can see so many things that have BLOSSOMED in you since having Tristan... God truly knows what we need -:)

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  3. OH B!!! :) I love this... perspective... you are an inspiration. T&L BEST FRIENDS FOREVER :) Brother and Sister friends... how special is their bond going to be!!

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  4. Aw!!! I cried too!!! Sweet little man!!! Soon your baby girl will be here.. and then you will have 2 little joys!!! :) Love you!

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