But right now, in this moment.... This is my song.....
Ginny Owens sings it.
"If you want me to."
The pathway is broken And the signs are unclear And I don't know the reason why You brought me here But just because You love me the way that You do I'm gonna walk through the valley If You want me to Cause I'm not who I was When I took my first step And I'm clinging to the promise You're not through with me yet So if all of these trials bring me closer to You Then I will go through the fire If You want me to It may not be the way I would have chosen When You lead me through a world that's not my home But You never said it would be easy You only said I'll never go alone (yeah oh oh) So when the whole world turns against me And I'm all by myself And I can't hear You answer my cries for help I'll remember the sufferin' Your love put You through And I will go through the valley If You want me to When I cross over Jordan, I'm gonna sing, gonna shout Gonna look into your eyes and see you never let me down So take me on the pathway that leads me home to you And I will walk through the valley if you want me to Yes, I will walk through the valley if you want me to
Isaiah 30:15b spoke to me many years ago... "In quietness & confidence-let that be your strength." It has the same effect on me now. I just read it & it brought tears to my weary eyes. I remember what I was going through at that time. The pain I was feeling, the words I wanted to say, the tears I cried. I would never want to go back to that dark time in my life. Bt as I think about it now, I wouldn't trade those trials now. That is the closest I have ever felt to God. I never felt that much Joy or Love for my Savior. Isn't it amazing that God lets us go through trials so that we can DRAW closer to HIM? I am going through something minor, but God has showed me HE IS in control. I am so thankful that I serve a God that cares enough to let me know..."Hey, Beka! I have everything under control!"
Isaiah 30:18----> "So the Lord must wait for you to come to him, so he can show you his love and compassion. For the LORD is a faithful God. Blessed are those who wait for his help!"
Lord, I wait on You. Help me to CALM my ANXIOUS heart & tongue. For out of the heart the mouth speaks.... so guard my lips & let them only bring LOVE. amen.
LOVE, LOVE, LOVE, LOVE, LOVE, LOVE, LOVE.... I feel like I need to go write that on a chalkboard for a looooooong time so it can SINK in.
Love even when it hurts,