I have always loved having lots of friends around me. I am a people person. The only time I don't like LARGE groups is when we are all sitting in a restaurant and being too loud. (worst anxiety attack-ever!) But other than the whole "restaurant scene" I am game for large groups.
I have learned growing up in a small town/being the Pastor's Kid/living in a fish bowl there are many different types of friendships.
Someone once said to me, "Beka, you can't have more than 1 best friend. Everyone cannot be your #1." I have heard that again and again. It might be true to a certain extent, but I believe that everyone should have more than just one beautiful friendship. Sure... you have some friends that you just "click" with better or you have one friend that just "gets you". Some of the other friends might just not understand how you communicate or they might not be able to finish your sentence. Some of those friendships were just for a season, just that "moment in time", which makes me sad to think about....
I am asking my stinging heart this.....
Does this mean you stop loving them? Does this mean you stop trying? No & No.
I believe that every single friendship that enters into your life is sent by God. Sure, sometimes you are just close to that friend for a short season, but they were there for a reason. There was purpose behind that friendship.
I am sorry if this blog is all over the place & doesn't have any pattern. My mind is foggy & my heart is stinging. Over the past 5 years, I have made some BEAUTIFUL friendships. It is hard to think that the friend you once lived with or "could finish each other sentences" is gone. Not gone in a sense of DEATH or anything to that extreme, but gone from your everyday life.
I am learning and keep telling myself this.....
Lets not stop loving. Lets not stop trying to bring peace. Lets not build a wall. Let us always try to build a bridge. Even if that bridge has been burnt down or you tore it down or they did, whichever! God says in Proverbs 17:17- "A friend loves at all times. " My daddy always taught me to CIRCLE or HIGHLIGHT the word---ALL in the Bible. It's a powerful 3 letter word. ALL. Not just some of the time... or "when they are nice to you"..... But ALL the time!
I pray that if anyone that reads this blog.....will look DEEP in their heart and decide to choose LOVE and not have another moment of hurt, pain, jealousy, pride in their heart towards someone they were once very close to.
There are a few emails/snail mail letters I am going to be mailing out today. Because of this..... that person that once told me I couldn't have more than one best friend is wrong and has never met my mother. She treats everyone special and makes them feel like a million dollars and that she will fight for them no matter what. I want to be THAT kind of woman.
I hope you can look past your stinging heart and PUSH away the pain and look at that friend that hurt you or you said something to them you shouldn't have and see that GOD wants our friendships to grow stronger and not be torn apart.
Satan comes to STEAL, KILL, & destroy in our friendships. Look past it.... Don't even go to them and tell them..."You hurt my feelings so bad when you did this or when you said this."
Just go to them and LOVE-ON-THEM!!!! let them know you cherish their friendship. Afterall.....wouldn't you want them to do the same to you? Wouldn't you want to get a letter or email that made your day?
Tristan is now awake.... time for me to do one of the most unselfish jobs...ever in the world! be a mom.... because AFTERALL.... He is watching me and seeing how I handle things and situations.
"Love is patient & kind.... it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud, or rude, it is not self-seeking.......... love rejoices with the TRUTH!."
Truth wins out. Let YOUR truth be in LOVE.